Sunday, January 26, 2014

No Backspaces

NO BACKSPACES.


I figure if I title it "no backspaces" I might actually be able to get something down, without second guessing  myself about putting myself out there and being vulnerable. Second guessing if what I'm writing is stupid, posed, or looks like I'm trying too hard.... Not that that's not the case, because I am trying hard, very hard. And if you say you're not you are one hell of a liar. Because the fact of the matter is we are all trying. Trying to be the blog everyone talks about and reads like mothers read Readers Digest and Fathers "don't" read sports illustrated. Trying to be the blog Nelson quotes and Uses as an example for next years writers. Trying to be the blog that is both depressing and inspiring all in one. {which happens to make no sense to me. What's inspiring about a person on the brink of suicide?} Yet those are the blogs I go to before I write. Maybe it's because they make us feel something. Feel the love, hope, and desire the author obviously doesn't. But maybe not. Whatever. 

I've always been good at hellos. They are easy. It's easy letting someone into your life. Because you want them there. No matter how much you may try to deny it. We as humans crave that social interaction, we need it. Some people may claim being alone is ok and is something to be desired. But not for weeks. Not forever.  That's why I'm happy to say HELLO. Welcome to my slightly dysfunctional, highly spontaneous, semi average life. If you aren't impressed I'm not worried, first impressions don't generally tend to stick anyways. I've always got next post to try again. 

So in case you didn't catch the big bold name at the top, I am June Carter. And yes I did use the backspace button. Whoops.