Writers block

I sit down to write and I can't. 
I want to write about my mom and how I miss her more than anything. But I can't, cause my mom is only states away and yours is worlds. 
I want to write about you. But I don't know you like I should.
I almost wrote about tinder.... and I still might.... nahhh.
I want to write something that will be read and re read. I want to create an anthem. 
But I can't.
Cause I'm pretty sure I have ADHD and I just found play dough. 
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I'm back and I still can't write.
I would write about dating. but well I've never even had a boy friend... (other than taylor woodman in 7th grade for a day). 
I want to write in a way that pulls you out of your depression and gives you comfort.
But they said I'm not good at comforting and I listened. 
I want to write to my little brother. But he won't read with out me there.
I want to write that the thought of me not being there for him just made me cry,
But I can't cause I am not weak *can't be weak.
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I want to write my testimony. But that won't bring you back. 
I want to write about my best friend cause not enough people know her. I can't though cause my words would never do her justice. 
I could write about my dad, about how he is me and I am him. And how that scares me cause of how my mom talks about him. 
But I can't bring my self to do it.
I could write about the unknown but how am I supposed to do that when I'm already a teenager that knows it all?
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I could write endless remember whens. But that only makes me sad.
I want to write how I feel. But honestly I feel too many things at once. 
I want to write about regrets and mistakes...
But I also want to write something you'll want to read.
I honestly just want to write about my mom. 
But its too late now my lap tops about to die and the chargers on the other side of the room.